Winter break isn't so bad. just a whole lot of headaches from sleeping in so much and laying on my bed watching tv in the room. I've just been praying, wishing, hoping that I get a fuckin job soon and that my mom passes her boards. Why does it have to be so fuckin hard. She's taken the test 5x already.. and nothing. She's 45 now, when will she finally have the spotlight on her and get what she deserves. It just sucks you know. I'm her oldest, I will be 21 this year, and I still rely on my mom for help. I try not to but she offers and you know Filipino moms.. when they offer, you have to take it.. it'll piss em off if you don't. So I do and whenever I do, it makes me feel bad inside that I'm not doing anything to help her.. my brother is. My brother who's barely turning 18 this month helps my mom financially. Even if it's not a lot, he still does. While I'm here, doing nothing at home, waiting for school to start and waiting for my financial aid just so I have money to spend. It really does suck tho. I want a job soooo bad.
Why can't you hear my prayers?
Sooo, Tupes and I are also planning to move. It's not that I don't like my roommates kus they're both super dope.. it's just.. I'm kind of tired of having roommates? I think rooming with friends somewhat ruins the friendship I have with them. I mean, not ruin but, ughz. Let's see.. how can I put it? We realize how we really are when we live together and well, some habits that I didn't know before are really annoying to me and I think it's better off that we stop. But.. in order to move, I, we [tupes&i] need jobs to save up money for future rent. Ughz. I haaaaate this.
I owe my brother $300. gosh.
I miss my dad. I just heard today that a couple of my family members on his side of the family are in the hospital. I love that I'm closer to his side of the family than my moms side because my dad's side is dope. I just hate that they're all in the motherland. Hopefully we come through with this years trip. I miss our annual trips to the Philippines. Too bad it's hella expensive. Ughz.
Why can't there be a How-To in becoming a nurse?
Process takes forever.
So Tupes got a hair cut. Lol. And he complains everytime I tell him "you're cute" kus he says I rarely ever say it. I don't like to express my feelings besides saying "i love you" and okay, fine.. I don't really compliment him as much as.. I should? But hey, I'm starting to and he better get used to it. Although, I didn't really tell him but, when he wears a hat and how his hair is.. it reminds me of.. ehh. LOL. ANYWAY! lol ahah.. He's being funny right now. With his rotten milk story and shnuff. LOL. He can't shit.. just pebbles come out. Gross right. ahah. Idk.. lately we've just been laughing a lot. Maybe kus his new year's resolution was to not argue with me. But really tho? For a whole year? We'll see about that. Hope it works? Let's just keep laughing, it's healthy for us didn't you know? I love him super much. We're closing in on a year and I've just realized how quick the past year has gone between us two. And to think he's been living with me for most of the time we've been together? Damn.
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect; you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze, and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there. "
-Bob Marley
Why can't you hear my prayers?
Sooo, Tupes and I are also planning to move. It's not that I don't like my roommates kus they're both super dope.. it's just.. I'm kind of tired of having roommates? I think rooming with friends somewhat ruins the friendship I have with them. I mean, not ruin but, ughz. Let's see.. how can I put it? We realize how we really are when we live together and well, some habits that I didn't know before are really annoying to me and I think it's better off that we stop. But.. in order to move, I, we [tupes&i] need jobs to save up money for future rent. Ughz. I haaaaate this.
I owe my brother $300. gosh.
I miss my dad. I just heard today that a couple of my family members on his side of the family are in the hospital. I love that I'm closer to his side of the family than my moms side because my dad's side is dope. I just hate that they're all in the motherland. Hopefully we come through with this years trip. I miss our annual trips to the Philippines. Too bad it's hella expensive. Ughz.
Why can't there be a How-To in becoming a nurse?
Process takes forever.
So Tupes got a hair cut. Lol. And he complains everytime I tell him "you're cute" kus he says I rarely ever say it. I don't like to express my feelings besides saying "i love you" and okay, fine.. I don't really compliment him as much as.. I should? But hey, I'm starting to and he better get used to it. Although, I didn't really tell him but, when he wears a hat and how his hair is.. it reminds me of.. ehh. LOL. ANYWAY! lol ahah.. He's being funny right now. With his rotten milk story and shnuff. LOL. He can't shit.. just pebbles come out. Gross right. ahah. Idk.. lately we've just been laughing a lot. Maybe kus his new year's resolution was to not argue with me. But really tho? For a whole year? We'll see about that. Hope it works? Let's just keep laughing, it's healthy for us didn't you know? I love him super much. We're closing in on a year and I've just realized how quick the past year has gone between us two. And to think he's been living with me for most of the time we've been together? Damn.
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect; you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze, and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there. "
-Bob Marley
This must be the longest blog I've ever typed up on this thing.. I guess I just have a lot to say since I haven't really been blogging? Idk.. but I'll save some for another day. Time to comment the hubba bubbas. I think he has diarrhea right now. LOL.
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