friends, how many of us have them?

FRIENDS. i don't think i really know what the definition of a "friend" is anymore. like seriously, my "friends" KNOW i'd help them out in a heartbeat if i can. i'll take them in if they need a place to stay. lend them money and treat them out if they're low on cash. lend them my car even if it's just a fuckin bucket. but who cares right. a car is a car. as long as it works and it takes you to your destination right? ughz. but really tho. some of these "friends" that i have aren't being real helpful "friends". they know the situation i'm in right now and they can't even trust me to drive their car? are you serious? just kus their cars are "better" or "newer" than mine? or what? just kus i'm with tupes, who has no license yet, but is in the process? ughz. act like ima let him drive and risk us getting into another shit with their car? ughz. man. fuck em. they're only my friends when they need something or when they need my fuckin help. i don't really give a flying fuck about these folkz anymore.

surrender

i think i'm giving up on life. either that.. or i might have to just move back home. there's too much stress down here. i don't have a job. i'm slacking in school. my car got impounded for 30 days and i'd need to pay $1300+ just to get it back. ughz. what a life. i don't know what else to do. after 2 months, we're done with the lease.. and i'd have no home. because i have no money for rent. no money for gas to take me anywhere. no nothing. so what do i do? i surrender.

FUCK THE COPS!