for my mom

So today was Mother's Day and it's so funny how my mom texted me
"where are you ate? what are you doing? do you kno what today is?"

i giggled after i read it. but i didn't reply kus i was still sleeping. and THEN she called me. just casually starting a conversation about how i'm doing. if i'm getting better, kus i've been sick. and NO people! i do NOT have no effin swine flu! and so she goes
"oh ok. just making sure you're alright. i'll talk to you later then ate"

and i knoooo she was waiting for me to say something.. which i did anyway.. before she hung up. i told her happy mother's day. but what i really wanted to do was send her a poem that i could think of from the top of my head just so she knows its from me and from my heart you know? so after i got off the phone with her, i waited like half an hour.. and then i texted her

"you should've waited. i was still
sleeping when you texted me. kus the
nyquil is still in my system. but anyway:

roses are red, violets are blue
the best mom award goes out to you
----------------------------------------
For everything you've done
I thank you with all my heart.
You've been through everything for me
from the very start.

Todays the day
you'll get all your glory
When everyone will thank you
or even say sorry.

I love you I love you I love

what else can I say

Thank you thank you thank you

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY"

i made her cry. totally not my intention. but.. i've never really shown any affection to my mom other than telling her 'i love you' through the phone. my mom means all the world to me. and i just wanted to show her some appreciation for everything she's gone through just to put me in college and for supporting me. she's the toughest woman i know. and i everything i know outside of school, i learned from her. she's the best in world, even though all of us can say that about our moms. but seriously, if you get to know my mom, she'll take you in as her own child and care for you like she cares for me.

i love her.

my bestfriend. my mom. my everything.

Why Women Cry -from MG

Why Women Cry (Watch Her Eyes)

A little boy asked his mother, “Why are you crying?” “Because I’m a woman , ” she told him.

“I don’t understand , ” he said. His Mom just hugged him and said , “And you never will.”

Later the little boy asked his father , “Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?”

“All women cry for no reason , ” was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man , still wondering why women cry…

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone , he asked , “God , why do women cry so easily?”

God said

“When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up , and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances , even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife , but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally , I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.”

“You see my son , ” said God , “the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears , the figure that she carries , or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes , because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides.”

i fell in love all over again

Ryan Conferido from Quest Crew's piano pieces are dope. Listen and you'll fall in love too.

Lullaby


Girl Don't Cry


Flowers for Julia


My Miracle


Miracle 2



Seriously, Ryan's super talented. I love it.
There's plenty more videos from his youtube account. Check 'em out.

need

i need a job
-to support myself
-to [help] support my family
-to support tupes
-to pay for rent
-to pay for bills
-to pay everyone i owe back

i need to do better in school
-to impress my mom, my family, &not let them down
-to finish in time, 2011 is the year
-to know i can finish what i've started &never give up
-to get where i want to be

i need
-to handle my shit and get things going
-to know what & what not to do
-to get my head screwed on straight &realize i'm getting old enough to take care of myself
-to start relying on myself because no one else will help me
-to just be thankful for what i have now just in case everything goes away

just try

i hate the weather
it makes me feel all kinds of lazy.
i couldn't sleep last night
because i was seriously going crazy

everytime i think that
i was finally falling asleep
i get this stupid itchy feeling
and i kept hearing this annoying beep!

ughz. hot weather all week i heard
not too excited about that.
at least it'll be a little cooler tomorrow
maybe until sat.

summers coming up
and my body's not prepared.
i will work out, i will get fit
i will get a body i can compare

but before i start
i have sushi left over.
i shall eat that now
before its eaten by the lover.

i barely do poetry
i always get so shy.
but i thought to myself,
hey, why don't you just try.

friends, how many of us have them?

FRIENDS. i don't think i really know what the definition of a "friend" is anymore. like seriously, my "friends" KNOW i'd help them out in a heartbeat if i can. i'll take them in if they need a place to stay. lend them money and treat them out if they're low on cash. lend them my car even if it's just a fuckin bucket. but who cares right. a car is a car. as long as it works and it takes you to your destination right? ughz. but really tho. some of these "friends" that i have aren't being real helpful "friends". they know the situation i'm in right now and they can't even trust me to drive their car? are you serious? just kus their cars are "better" or "newer" than mine? or what? just kus i'm with tupes, who has no license yet, but is in the process? ughz. act like ima let him drive and risk us getting into another shit with their car? ughz. man. fuck em. they're only my friends when they need something or when they need my fuckin help. i don't really give a flying fuck about these folkz anymore.

surrender

i think i'm giving up on life. either that.. or i might have to just move back home. there's too much stress down here. i don't have a job. i'm slacking in school. my car got impounded for 30 days and i'd need to pay $1300+ just to get it back. ughz. what a life. i don't know what else to do. after 2 months, we're done with the lease.. and i'd have no home. because i have no money for rent. no money for gas to take me anywhere. no nothing. so what do i do? i surrender.

FUCK THE COPS!