Why Women Cry -from MG

Why Women Cry (Watch Her Eyes)

A little boy asked his mother, “Why are you crying?” “Because I’m a woman , ” she told him.

“I don’t understand , ” he said. His Mom just hugged him and said , “And you never will.”

Later the little boy asked his father , “Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?”

“All women cry for no reason , ” was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man , still wondering why women cry…

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone , he asked , “God , why do women cry so easily?”

God said

“When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up , and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances , even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife , but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally , I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.”

“You see my son , ” said God , “the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears , the figure that she carries , or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes , because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides.”

i fell in love all over again

Ryan Conferido from Quest Crew's piano pieces are dope. Listen and you'll fall in love too.

Lullaby


Girl Don't Cry


Flowers for Julia


My Miracle


Miracle 2



Seriously, Ryan's super talented. I love it.
There's plenty more videos from his youtube account. Check 'em out.

need

i need a job
-to support myself
-to [help] support my family
-to support tupes
-to pay for rent
-to pay for bills
-to pay everyone i owe back

i need to do better in school
-to impress my mom, my family, &not let them down
-to finish in time, 2011 is the year
-to know i can finish what i've started &never give up
-to get where i want to be

i need
-to handle my shit and get things going
-to know what & what not to do
-to get my head screwed on straight &realize i'm getting old enough to take care of myself
-to start relying on myself because no one else will help me
-to just be thankful for what i have now just in case everything goes away

just try

i hate the weather
it makes me feel all kinds of lazy.
i couldn't sleep last night
because i was seriously going crazy

everytime i think that
i was finally falling asleep
i get this stupid itchy feeling
and i kept hearing this annoying beep!

ughz. hot weather all week i heard
not too excited about that.
at least it'll be a little cooler tomorrow
maybe until sat.

summers coming up
and my body's not prepared.
i will work out, i will get fit
i will get a body i can compare

but before i start
i have sushi left over.
i shall eat that now
before its eaten by the lover.

i barely do poetry
i always get so shy.
but i thought to myself,
hey, why don't you just try.

friends, how many of us have them?

FRIENDS. i don't think i really know what the definition of a "friend" is anymore. like seriously, my "friends" KNOW i'd help them out in a heartbeat if i can. i'll take them in if they need a place to stay. lend them money and treat them out if they're low on cash. lend them my car even if it's just a fuckin bucket. but who cares right. a car is a car. as long as it works and it takes you to your destination right? ughz. but really tho. some of these "friends" that i have aren't being real helpful "friends". they know the situation i'm in right now and they can't even trust me to drive their car? are you serious? just kus their cars are "better" or "newer" than mine? or what? just kus i'm with tupes, who has no license yet, but is in the process? ughz. act like ima let him drive and risk us getting into another shit with their car? ughz. man. fuck em. they're only my friends when they need something or when they need my fuckin help. i don't really give a flying fuck about these folkz anymore.

surrender

i think i'm giving up on life. either that.. or i might have to just move back home. there's too much stress down here. i don't have a job. i'm slacking in school. my car got impounded for 30 days and i'd need to pay $1300+ just to get it back. ughz. what a life. i don't know what else to do. after 2 months, we're done with the lease.. and i'd have no home. because i have no money for rent. no money for gas to take me anywhere. no nothing. so what do i do? i surrender.

FUCK THE COPS!

live . learn . grow

first of all.. what is an epiphany?

e⋅piph⋅a⋅ny
–noun, plural -nies

• A sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.
• A comprehension or perception of reality by means of a sudden intuitive realization

soooo i realize that my best thoughts come to me right before i fall asleep. i wanted to blog so bad last night because i was thinking about some things. but i just ended up falling asleep. lol. so i promised myself to remember what i was thinking about and blog about it today.

thought one:
i noticed that all the guys i've had a relationship with [i'm not about to name alll of the guys kus y'all don't need to know, but i'm sure some of you do. lol], have three things in common: all have chinky-ish eyes [some more chinky than others], all have fat ass lips [nothing wrong with that], and all play basketball. isn't it a little ironic? lol. kina makes me laugh.

anyway.. the bigger thought:
as i was thinking about what my ex's have in common, i began to think about something else. or rather.. one of them in particular. the last few months i was with jay, i admit, i fucked up big time. now, this isn't where i say "i miss him" and all the other bullshit, kus i don't. i would be lying to myself and my readers if i did. i was just thinking about how bad things got for us. i realized that i had changed while living down here and i realized that, from the beginning, jay had been putting more effort in our relationship than i ever did. during high school, yea i'd come to delano to see him, but i wanted to visit the friends i made and his family more than coming just to see him you know? i feel that, he bought me love. with all the things he bought me, or would do for me, it felt wrong.
i just.. i feel bad now that i think about it. but shit, things happen. but sometimes, those things happen for a good reason. i fell "in love" too fast and too young with him. and when i came across something different in a place where i knew nothing of, i didn't know how to handle it soo i made a decision that would alter my life and sort of, renew everything that i knew. i cried for jay, not because i didn't want to leave him, but because i felt bad for doing what i did. i cried because i knew i was hurting him. it hurts me to see others get hurt because of something i did. i cried because i wasn't myself, and i cried just because i've been wanting [and needed] to let it out.

i'm not a bad person. sometimes, people just fall out of love. and that was my situation. i could've handled it a little better but i can't take anything back now. i'm happy and content with my life as it is now. being with tupes feels like we balance each other out. something jay and i lacked. what i did was a learning experience that i have to live with. no looking back, just straight ahead for new obstacles to overcome.

you live. you learn. you grow.